Literary Blog

I don't know where to start, so let me just start by saying I miss you. I miss our friendship. I miss those daily conversations that got us involved in each other's lives, even when we are literally an ocean apart. I miss how we supported each other as we worked to...

Ako si Nathan Lopez. 10 years ago, I met someone from my past and someone from my future.

I’ve always wanted to hear your story.
The same way I’ve wanted to unravel the mystery.
I’ve always wanted to tell your story.
The same way I wanted everyone to see our story.

Mahal, paano?
Saan ka nagsimula?
Sinimulan mo ba sa ating nga pangako?
Na tayo’y magsasama hanggang dulo?

Sabi ko hindi ako magsusulat tungkol sa atin.
Hindi muna. Hindi pa. Hindi ko pa kaya.

Mahal, nasaan ka?
Mahal, nakikinig ka ba?
Mahal, makinig ka

Hagkan mo ako’t yakapin.
Ang bukas ating harapin.
Maglalakas loob,
Malakas aking kutob.

Patawarin mo ako na minahal kita.
Na naghintay ako’t nagtiyaga.
Patawarin mo ako na hindi ako napagod sa kakaintindi, kakahintay, kakatiyaga.
Ang alam ko kasi kung mahal mo, gagawin mo ang lahat.

Forgive me for these filtered realities that I am giving you. If and when the right time comes, the walls will come down and you’ll find the truth.

I hate myself for always falling for someone who is in love with someone else. It had been a cycle that I have endlessly lived in.

We were both young and stupid. Well, you were young, I was stupid. We were at a time that we wished we knew better. Both reeling from the pains of failed relationships, we jumped into what could make us whole. We were drunk with the idea that a new love is what would save us. Fueled with passion, we threw ourselves to spontaneous adventures. The promise of a kiss was enough to keep us moving forward.

From where I stand,I can see how the leaves try,To hold on dearlyLest the tree lets them fall.From where I stand,I hear how the wind blows,Finding its path,Never settling in peace. From where I stand,I feel how the clouds fall apart,When they finally get fullAnd it's...

We lose what we value so that we can learn to value ourselves. I deeply wished and hoped and prayed that you would come back, I left the doors open even when I knew you had the keys.

“How do we get over the pain of love?”

Mabuti kang tao at ‘wag mong kakalimutan ‘yun. Huwag mong hayaang baguhin ka ng takot mo. Huwag mong hayaang ang nakaraan mo o kung anong mga nagawa mo ang magdikta kung sino ka at ano ang kayang mo pang gawin. Huwag mong yakapin ang sakit na nararamdaman mo dahil ‘yung ang madali. Naiintindihan ko kung bakit ka takot dahil ako din, minsan natakot.

And here I am going through every single detail of all that had transpired between the two of us. I look back and instead of finding answers, I get more questions.

Words and time are two of those that I value the most. They are treasures I can give to the ones I love and gifts I treasure when given to me.True enough, as the line from The Little Prince goes “what is essential is invisible to the eyes.”

Now I can say I know you so well. I have seen you through your best and through your worst. The painful realization, however, is that at the moment I realized I already know so much about you, that was when I realized I never really knew you.

I miss how can just silence all the noise in my head, by the mere touch of your hand.

Ako ba’y mahalaga?
Kung hindi, ayos lang
Huwag lang ako’y lutang
Sa ere maiwan
Babagsak sa kawalan

I wouldn’t have fallen in love with you had you not opened yourself to me. Had you not told me things about you that no one else knew. Had you not said the words you never told anyone before. Had you not showed me your vulnerabilities. Had you not let me in on those deepest, darkest memories.

So I walked to the Passy Station. “Five stations after I’m off.” I thought to myself. Then in than moment I saw someone across the street that looked just like me who happens to wear a jacket similar to the one i just forgot to bring. I stopped walking to see the man closely but just as then a woman ran into and hit my back. When I looked up, he was gone.

I am happy, simply because I made decisions that allowed me to discover myself better. With that discovery came my understanding of myself and acceptance of who I am and what I can be. It had been a long, painful process to go through that acceptance.

It’s funny how life would give you the right people at the right time you need them… Especially when you find the wrong ones at the wrong time. You always tell me everything happens for a reason, fate brought us together because of reasons we may soon find out.

Though I keep on asking why,
Trust me, I will always try.
I made a promise to you,
I’ll stand up and start anew.